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“The Black Fantastic” is a project the University Communications and Marketing team created as a means to highlight excellence among a few of ����Vlog’s Black faculty and staff members. As we celebrate Black History Month, this is an artistic and creative look at some of the people who are helping to shape and mentor the great minds of the future. In their own words, each was asked to respond to the phrase, “I am proud of my success because …” The title “The Black Fantastic” was chosen by the participants and stems from Richard Iton’s book, “In Search of the Black Fantastic: Politics and Popular Culture in the Post-Civil Rights Era.”

As Munene Mwaniki, ����Vlog associate professor in the Department of Anthropology and Sociology, explains, “The book broadly discusses the contemporary and lingering political problems facing Black America since the landmark Civil Rights legislation in the 1960s. Though still widely heralded, the Civil Rights era did not result in a restructuring of American politics, rather it found that the foundational aspects of U.S. politics had certain, if flexible, limits towards social change. In the decades that followed, Black entrance into the political sphere not only failed in many respects, but also led to a number of compromises that constrained Black political thought and attempted to separate Black political thought from its long relationship with Black popular culture. For Iton, the Black Fantastic represents a challenge, a destabilizing force, to the status quo that seeks to limit and constrain Black creativity and politics. It is a pushing of boundaries, a grasping and claiming of space, beyond those limits that only appear to be concrete in order to create something new, something human. The Black Fantastic here, then, should be seen as unconventional, with sense towards ignored or underdeveloped possibilities for those considered Black in the U.S. and throughout the Black diaspora.”

I don’t recall the first time I heard that “if you live by the cheers, you die by the boos,” but it stuck with me and it shapes much of my thoughts around success.

I think very highly of the late Audre Lorde, who also earned to a master’s degree in library science. In “Learning from the 60’s,” she wrote that she learned to define herself for herself, lest she be “crunched into the fantasies of others and eaten alive.” I identify with these words. Particularly as a Black woman, I find that I need to define my successes for myself as others sometimes loathe to admit or even acknowledge my wins, or rather my success is met with disdain. Therefore, I define my success in a manner that gives me hope and lets me know that I’m just getting started and the best is yet to come.

If success was reaching one goal, one position, then sure I could call this stage of my career successful by many standards. My friends in other libraries certainly believe that this is success and I am inclined to agree with them.

But I do not define success by position or money, rather I have learned to count the little successes that I achieve every day, every month and every year. Of course, my basic needs are met – which is success. But further, I count it as success to be able to discern valid criticism from unfounded attacks, to withstand and disregard micro-aggressions, to remain optimistic and cordial, while being called adversarial and aggressive. Those tropes are well used in descriptions of Black women when often the reality/truth is you are simply existing in spaces where you are not expected and barely tolerated. I’m successful because I’ve learned to advocate for myself and those who look like me. I received a note from a student last year that simply said “I’m glad you’re here,” and I certainly count that as a success.

I often lament that my profession, and academia in general, is so fraught for Black women; it certainly has been no crystal stair. If only it were as easy as the path others have experienced, if I were able to demand a position rather than earn it, perhaps I could breathe easy while doing what I love. Yet, I recognize that it takes more to get here, and even more to stay. When questions of your “fit” are more important than your talent/skill, you learn that you must constantly put skill on display, which is a recipe for exhaustion, but necessary to remain successful. When people speak of Black excellence and success, they should simultaneously consider how much extra it takes to get here, or anywhere for that matter. The extra layers of struggle and sacrifice that are weaved into the Black experience are undeniable. 

I still hope to reach new heights and see new horizons and pursue and define generational success for my family and my community. I will have reached the pinnacle when I’m able to destabilize the dominant themes of marginalization within my field and as Ms. Lorde said, “to use my strength in service of my vision.”

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